premonitions

it is very amazing. i saw the choice that i would have to make today in my dreams. although, the setting was probably different(i cant really remember), the crux of the matter remains the same. should i go out with my friends or should i abandon them for something significantly important(no, its not playing half life 2). well, i clearly remember the last chilling moment of the dream which woke me up at 8:15am in the morning. bummer. i overslept and i had training at 9am. bad start but the dream set me thinking.

of course, by now there'd be at least a bunch of people who'd be rather disappointed with me. oh well. like i care. haha. but the moment i entered the range, one question has been asked very persistently. "are you coming?"
of course that didnt really help my decision making process alot. but i kept shrugging them off with the i havent decided yet reply(it really was true to some extent). hah. but i think subconciously i had already made up my mind. ironically, it was just before our vice cap called out for more team dynamics and team bonding by means of outings. haha. speaking of that, i couldnt help but wonder if i was included in the references. but if i was, i will show defiance! hah. i most certainly train with goals in mind. and i have been able to achieve at least some thanks to a rather uncharacteristically helpful koach. (: (wonder if you can lend me lego star wars 2 though. haha)
classic statement: you have done something right!

ohwell. i will make the fullest effort not to slip down the hole i just crawled out of.
i guess i cant say much else about the whole thing. (probably wasnt even misses at all). just hope that everyone had fun there. (:

oh yea. and in case you're wondering, the only reason why i am so concerned/down is because i am not pro enough like you to recover or find replacements for what i've lost.